Hello 20s

Why does it get better at the end of the tunnel? Why not at the beginning?

At 20, I was happy I had finally become an adult. I can finally hangout with my friends, attend late night parties, watch crazy movies, date a boy and possibly kiss him.

I have no idea why I picked this picture or why it came out horizontally but this is my current view as I type out my feelings to you guys… lol

I always thought the interesting part about being an adult is… THE FREEDOM. No more annoying parental supervision. We are grown now.

Being an adult was supposed to be the best time of our life. It was supposed to be us experiencing all the fun of being grown, so why are we stuck in a room, depressed, lonely and searching for an escape route.

Searching for an opening to better days, to a happier life, to a moment filled with immense joy and laughter.

Does it get better? The heartaches, pain, depression, anxiety, fear? Does any of it get better? Do we at some point, wake up and feel all the sadness wash away and happiness overflowing? I don’t think that’s possible.

Why does adulting ask for so much from us? Why does it demand for the impossible? Why can’t we have it all?

Currently listening to “Oh my God” because that is the current state of my life.

The realisation that you’re now on your own, once in a while you find someone that is ready to help you out with life but it doesn’t last long. You realise your have to figure out your life for yourself else you’ll end up broke, depressed and lonely.

It doesn’t get better friend… as you watch all the friendships and relationships that you cherish fly away because everyone is getting busy with their lives, leaving the country or entering a phase you can’t easily understand.

It doesn’t get better sis… because at some point you watch how everyone is getting busy with something while you watch them and wonder what your purpose in life really is.

It doesn’t get better bruhhh… because you watch as death take away people from you and you ask yourself if this is how it’ll come for you too, without a warning or sign.

SIGH…

I hope in the midst of it all you don’t give up and know that most people in their 20s are going through the same thing as you. It’ll probably get better at some point.

Sending hugs to you all… and yes, I am back!