It's New Year, chill!
Ugh whatever!
January 7th, 2025
This morning, I tried everything to find the motivation to write this. I even stared at myself in the mirror for 5min, doing nothing. It’s surprising because just last week, I felt so motivated. I could take on the world then yunno. But now, I’m just tired. As I said in one of my posts last year though, I’m pushing myself ten times harder, no matter my mood.
Last week, I designed my vision board. One phrase on it stood out to me: “Follow your plan, not your mood.” Seeing those words made me realize that in the past few years, I let my emotions dictate my actions. If I didn’t feel like doing something, I wouldn’t. But recently, I’ve learned that if you don’t take your destiny by force, regardless of your mood, it’ll keep staring back at you until you’re ready to move. And that’s just annoying… kinda!
During the New Year buzz, when everyone was brimming with motivation (which isn’t a bad thing by the way—the beautiful thing about life is that you can always start over), I came across a tweet that resonated deeply. It said something about being audacious about your dreams, careers, or anything you want. Audacity somehow gives you that crazy confidence you think you’re lacking.
Even if it means channeling the audacity of men, the type that gives them the confidence to say anything just because they’re… men.
But then, there’s this other thing. All the excitement I had last week has disappeared into nothingness, and now I’m in a state of sadness with a tiny mixture of anxiety. Maybe it’s because I have this thing where, once my excitement reaches its peak, sadness takes over. Or maybe it’s because I’m feeling too pressured about my goals this year.
I went through my goals again last night and ngl, it’s a lot, make I chill first.
I really wan make am, guys! *holds chest and cries profusely
I know we all do, but walahi, I want to make it, and I want to make it this year. Success is not going to come to you if you don’t move toward it. And I’m so hyped this year. Ahhhhjslsjskskssk screamsss!
But I’m also sad and confused, and I want to believe I’m not the only one going through this. So maybe, we all just need to calm the f-ck down. *raises two hands in the air to calm the imaginary crowd
Sigh. Looks like I came to rant to you guys while everyone is trying to adjust to the new year… no vex
What was I talking about initially again? Yes, be audacious about your dreams. There’s a bible verse I want to quote but I can’t remember, it’s something about the “something something violent taketh it by force” Open your Bible, please. Don’t stress me.
Okay bye.
Happy New Year, I guess.
Little New Year Recap
My brother was home for the New Year, so it was a full house. We had so much fun.
I made banana bread, and it came out a mess.
Watched Squid Game 2, and I really enjoyed it.
We had a family late-night dinner, and it was so much fun.
that cupcake is fireeee
The first week I felt like if I don't plan everything out 2024 might repeat itself... but on Sunday I decided to calm down and plan as I go with the goals I have set out already. I hope this year brings us the most beautiful things ✨️ we must make it 🙏🏽
I had this sad feelings after the birthday buzz ended and i was thinking about my age again, had few anxiety attacks but yesterday i joined my church prayer meeting and one word kept ringing in my ears “Don’t be afraid, the Lord is with you” then i remember one statement Rev, Sam Adeyemi said during cross over “bite more than you can chew, let God chew it for you”
So like you said in the newsletter “i will be audacious with life especially career growth this year”
Oh Thank you for this, let me go and download cdrama.