Turning 26

You may think this is a sad writeup about my age but it's not. Trust me!

Turning 26 in age but looking and feeling 22.

Every year since I crossed the age of 23, I’ve cried for no reason on my birthday. Even when I decide not to cry, my best friend would video call me and we would cry together. It has always been kind of a routine since we left school, I don’t know why we do that… maybe we just miss each other😭

Birthdays aren’t meant to be sad or a day filled with tears, it’s not a funeral.

So why do I cry every year? Fear? Pressure? Or the overwhelming feeling that I’m getting old even though I’m 22 going to 26. (I was 23 when the pandemic started but 22 at heart and we’re still in the pandemic so technically I’m still 22/23)

I don’t know but I always feel overwhelmed when I remember I was 18 last night trying to get into my first relationship and realizing that one has to have sex to get pregnant and not the famous African parent teachings that say “once a boy shakes your hand, you get pregnant.” I’m still shocked how I believed that.

Now, I’m turning 22, and it is beginning to dawn on me that I’m actually getting older. (Yes, don’t remind me, I know I’m turning 26 not 22).

It feels like I haven’t changed but that would be a lie because I’m so much different from when I was 23. So much angrier. At the world precisely.

How was 25?

I have no idea, I thought I was 24 all along. So much happened though but above all, I got hungrier. Like I ate a lot.

Plans for 26?

No plans, I’m 4years closer to being 30. Leave me alone.

Do I want to celebrate my birthday this year?

Yes, I do. I’ve planned a vacation with my best friend, we’ve picked our outfits, and the food we’d love to eat, all we just need is the money. I have 5k saved though, I’m pretty sure she has like 10k. Don’t know where that would take us but we believe in the universe. How much do they charge in vacation houses?

Do I have a man to celebrate my birthday with this year?

I do. His name is Okafor, I met him at the mall. If you watch my Instagram stories, you’d have seen him. He is cute and chubby. He is a teddy. Literally! No, I’m serious, he’s literally a teddy, like a teddy bear. I bought him at the mall. I bought it… sorry.

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On a more serious note, I’m looking forward to the age of 26, mainly because I don’t have a choice but to do that. I hope it’d be a year filled with more financial opportunities and great health.

I would like to wake up to credit alerts because recently I’ve noticed I wake up to notifications from BTS, I mean update about them from Twitter and Instagram.

Wait, I’m not done yet. I will like to be a billionaire. Thank you.

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Happy Birthday to me I guess. Cheers to 22 or whatever that age my birth certificate says I’m turning.