DO IT AFRAID!

Because duhh, who is going to beat you?

Good morning Loves

I have no idea why Monday is such a serious day. Everyone gets so busy trying to get to school or work, putting every other issue of life aside just to give capitalism another unintentional thankful pat on the back... Not a fan.

I prefer starting my week on Tuesdays, (this only happens mentally btw) mostly because I hate following the fixed plans of life—or rather, society. And Mondays give me anxiety, and I wouldn't say I like anxiety that much.

Do it Afraid!

This phrase has been haunting me all weekend. I’ve seen it everywhere—on TikTok, Twitter, Substack, and in every article I’ve read. The last push was on Hauwa’s latest newsletter. Do it afraid! For some reason, I feel like that’s God’s way of telling my lazy self to start the project I’ve been putting off out of fear.

I’ve always been scared to start new things, mostly because change terrifies me. It took me almost two years to start publishing my writings online, and over five years to open my YouTube channel and start vlogging.

I’m an overthinker—the absolute worst. I’m also a perfectionist, which means nothing I put out is ever good enough for me. I edit my TikTok videos and re-watch them at least seven times to make sure they’re “perfect.” And even after uploading, I cringe at it. I can’t bear to re-watch my YouTube videos. It’s a terrible habit, I know. But even with all that, I’ve never been one to compare myself to others. I believe everyone has their own individual-different-kind of journey ahead.

That said, I’ve often doubted my own talents, believing I’m not as good as others. My friends and family constantly remind me that “my brain is like an ocean filled with fish (ideas), and all I need to do is calm down so the ocean doesn’t overflow and block the fish from reaching me.” It’s a beautiful metaphor by the way, and while I’m still learning how to calm down, I’m also starting to accept that maybe—just maybe—I really am as smart as they say. *whips my invincible hair to the side

I mean y’all do enjoy my newsletters… right?👀

I’ve accepted that it’s also okay to be afraid because honestly, I’m scared of this project I’m about to start. I’ve questioned myself a million times if I have what it takes, but I’ve decided to do it anyway. The people that have done it before did not have two heads.

It’s time to stop being lazy (this is me talking to myself... and maybe to you).

This has been my wallpaper these past few days. It’s something I found on TikTok, (It’s in response to someone asking ChatGPT “Tell me something that’ll break my heart so much, I’ll never be lazy again but make it about God”) and it felt like a wake-up call. If I don’t stand up now, I’ll only be preparing myself for regret. And I hate regrets.

I hope this motivates you. Or maybe it just sounds like I came to brag about my “smart-ass” brain (*cringes), but either way:

Get up. Do that thing you’ve been afraid to do. Start that YouTube channel. Upload that TikTok video. Start writing!

Just “do it scared.” No one’s going to beat you for trying.

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Weekend Recap:

• I’ve been shifting my interests from movies to books lately, and I’m loving it. Over the weekend, I finished two books (Misdeeds of a Billionaire by Eva Winners and My Maddest Obsession by Danielle Lori), and let me just say—I might be a little in love with the male character in My Maddest Obsession. I want a Christian Allister for myself omg😭

• I also watched a clip of Doechii’s performance on IG, and I’m proud to say I’ve found a new female hip-hop artist to obsess over for the next few weeks.

• Oh, and I treated myself to a solo cinema date yesterday to watch Moana. I almost teared up from excitement! I love her so much. I mean, I don’t get why she keeps going on these wild journeys no one sent her except those ancestors who won’t just rest in peace smh, but still, she inspires me. No matter how scared she is, she always does it afraid.

Have a blissful week everyone.